Sometimes I hate the way life is
going. I kind of did all of the goals I set out to do on the journey of growing
up, but when all of that is done and you have all that you need in order to
make your dreams happen, where do you start? I struggled with that daily. Where
to start? How to start? Where is this money going to come from? Hmmmmm. Yea,
maybe I think too much but then again, I'm a Virgo. Don't judge me! Lol.
After school and traveling, life
started, of course. But I guess I just wasn't ready for it. Or maybe I just
wasn't prepared for how REAL it is when it does start. Anywho, it's here now.
So instead of me spending so much time designing clothes, embellishing shoes,
looking for new customers on the internet, and surfing the wholesale websites
to keep adding things to my Ebay store, I decided to stop all of that... And
get a job.
I know, I know. That isn't the
American dream right?! But hey, I spent so much time AND MONEY following my dreams
that it actually put me in a little financial problem. Starting my Ebay store
meant inventory. Making a clothing line meant making samples which meant buying
fabric, muslin, paper for patterns, thread, notions, sketching paper, markers,
pencils. Shooting these looks meant photo shoots, make-up artists, hair dresser...
This "hobby" isn't cheap. Yes I have made a good bit along the way.
But when I would get paid, I wouldn't use the money to pay off my credit card
bills. I would use it towards the next project. Hoping to get bigger and bigger
and receiving more clients as a reward for my hard work. I just want you to
know that this business is ugly. I'm talking about hideous. I have gone through
MANY trials and tribulations that have almost made me give up. They would put
me in a bit of a set back because I would be feeling so discouraged and beat
down. But fuck it! What worth having comes easy??
With all of that being said, I'm
tired of working. Yes I went to school and have degree(s), yes that’s plural.
But honestly they don't mean anything to me. I'm sorry readers; I know you
didn't want to hear that. Don't get me wrong, I like school. It was never hard
for me. I kind of just went and whatever happened, happened. It just so
happened that it always turned out good. I really only did it for my parents,
and just to say that I did. But I honestly don't care much about it at all. I
don't want to work for absolutely anybody but myself. And although the
information in the classroom helped some, it really isn't any different from
when I am stumped on something and then I Google it or you tube it. I probably
could have googled or you tubed everything I learned in school and saved almost
$50,000. Oh well, can't think about it now.
From now on, I'm not going to work
just to pay bills. I work so much in order to live the life I want and pay the
bills I've accumulated and ummm... I’m not for that anymore. I graduated from
school 2 years ago and it only took me a year and a half to realize that. I'm
going to keep my job, of course. The benefits are good! haha. And where else is
this investment money going to come from? I'm going to put myself on a serious
struggle. Saving every bit of money I can to put it towards the business. And
of course I'm going to tell you every step of the way. Hell, maybe you can help
me through it. Struggle with me the whole way to the top. Who wants to be alone anyway??
...Let’s get started!
